Another year and the list is new
Not of the the recent ones, but those few
Who are left here with me
And those who have have moved to better things.

Some will go in a while
To start a new life and be a wife.
Some have left a while back
with a backpack and a new plan.

Some have gathered the courage
to study further and be a stud
some of us are still here
drifting like that log in the flood.

To all those who have stepped out
cheers to you my friends.
You have been bold
and made it out.

Definitely things will work out
I hope to meet you soon, time and again.
until then, good bye dear friends.


Ajay Gupta, Nachiket Kale, Dhruva Shankar, Arun Varma, Arun Borna, Vivek Agarwal, Mridula Sisaudia, Farheen Shah, Mahima Khurana, Santhosh Karnanda, Hamsini Radhakrishnan, Kalpana Behra.

Its nice to be working on things that make every day interesting. :) Loving It!

G1000gle G1000gal

So, well... made it this far. Not knowing back then that this is where I ll be. Life happens well, when its not planned!

Feel Old, and blue. Say you need change, and people look mad at you.

Here, often, life seems like 'its done' and often, it says 'it wants more'

He said "The only way to avoid being miserable is not to have enough leisure to wonder whether you are happy or not"

May be I am no busy enough yet.

And once again, i have said those things. Run, just run for your life.
An apple can be read as red, and become the seed of life when its in 'pink'of its health. There is so much to see and here I am just seeing another year go by in front of me - too quickly.

Still, the apple of my eye wants so see the world revealed.

Why Hold On so tight

To a past long gone by?

Why not leave it behind

And say your goodbyes?

Live in peace as is the need

There are many who have come and gone,
There will be several wo will touch and go
There are already those whom I have missed
There will always be enough to reminse.

to all those who are slowly moving on
for better things, and better songs
I want you all to know that in loving you
You have let me be, a better person, a wonderful entity.

Thank you all. And Best to all.
Meera, Aparna, Nilisha, Sandeep, Ayesha, Jo and Farhan
Damn I am going to miss you, some have already gone.

- From my heart
Sammy.

Opening Myself To The World ...

I am going to continue writing here
Not thinking of what people might think of me
Not letting my ego govern me.
Nor those who matter, friends or family
Just letting things be

Just being me.


Another side of me...

Alone, came to work after a week long break, 

and things seem to have changed. 

People seem older, some look young. 

Work got blder and I still cant see the sun. 

Que Sera Sera 

Whatever will be will be. 

Does it count ? You? Do you count? May be not enough. What are the facts...? Who says? 

Believe it or not, however crappy may the system be, its that time when your say, counts. 

Who comes, and who doesnt. Who wins, who doesnt, who could and who couldnt. What they do, and dont. Who to question, who you shouldnt. 

There are sevaral I know who do not belive in this system, starting from some who are very very close. And then there are some who ll give their lives to make it count. 

I believe that I will be able to question things guiltlfree after this excersice. At least I tried and then cribbed, rather than cribbed and cribbed and cribbed and did nothing. 

... The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid, and deeds left undone. 

Finding me - A conversation

From Meera, to Sam. This is one of those convo's that defines me. However much I resist, I know that somewhere definetily someone is watching closely. The transformation - What I was to what I am. Thanks for keeping an eye out for me Meera. It makes a lot of difference.

Here is the conversation that makes me ramble :

Meera: any updates last week?

sam: none

They are integrating the features with GRM

Meera: hmmm .. and is BA working on a dashboard or something in the meanwhile

sam: ye

yes, they havent confirmed on that yet

as

they wanted us to play with grm

for a bit

see what works what doesnt

Meera: wokies, seems fair

:)

but we would have liked it to be separate dont we>?

sam: Voted, although I dont get many mails :)

TOTALLY, separate would be ideal

Meera: would have been really nice that way, considering resources and extra tools, we can't say anything to adding up features

:(

what rests is that ppl know you worked on it and thats what is important now

:P

sam: yea, seriously

in the end, if your name isnt up thre...

All is duped

Meera: heheh, thats all you need to make sure eh?

sometimes its like our life is reduced to a showcase

maybe a pretty one, yet needs publicity

:D

sam: :)

Meera: long time since I had talks with you like this :)

sam: and looks like we are getting into the murky waters more and more as time passes.

:)

Yea, I agree.

Meera: so truee ...

sam: Long time since I spoke like this at all

Meera: uhuh???

thats strange of Sam

sam: :)

Yea, agreed. It happens rarely

Meera: I see her talking more like this

sam: her?

who?

Meera: you only

in third person though

:P

lemme finish

this .... the days I sat right beside her

seems they have changed

sam: oooh... I have a serious face, true. But someone should be interested to derive something of interest in what you are saying as well right.

Meera: :)

sam: I go in deep, when I see that someneis genuinely interested in listening to what I have to say

Meera: agreed, and you say you have no takers for what you wanna say??

sam: :)

Meera: is that what you're trying to get thru?

sam: Finish what you were saying

;) I ll barge in after you have finished

Meera: its complete, not a proper sentence, but basically that my neighbor Sam seems to have acquired a more mature and professional face

than that of the chirpy girly Sam that I always see her as

:)

sam: :)

Is it good?

or bad?

what do you feel?

Meera: I like the fact that you are learning that from being a fresher outta college (all of us are learning that at work right?)

but, sometimes I miss seeing "YOU"

as in the Sam I like to see

if you ask me, I'd want you to bring more balance into this

sam: I am here meera, for those who want to see me.

:)

Meera: roles that you have to play at work .... and the one that you are :)

sam: Seriously!

Meera: hmm .. maybe my eyes arent opened wide enough

sam: I have such a fight with it

:D

Meera: I know you sweetheart

and I trust you will

sam: May be,,,,,,

Meera: and everyday

:)

sam: Everyday, for a long time, I would come in, and it was like an overcoat

Meera: ha ha! thats like Jibran saying "Maybe" which I take as a 'Yes' ;)

sam: You waer it when you go out, and you take it off when you walk in

Meera: but why such an overcoat?

a jacket would be enough ...

:D

sam: :) Yeaa...

Meera: am not saying do without it

sam: I like the word overcoal

Meera: but maybe cut the sleeves short

sam: overcoat

Meera: and reduce the length

sam: :D

Meera: and then dont button up

sam: I like the lenth

:D

Meera: and there you are

sam: Yea, buttons can be spared

Meera: with that puurrfect balanced

:)

sam: :)

Umm... may be you need to question it this way

Do you need an overcoat?

Was an overcoat always taken off you?

Meera: can I answer ..... Yes you do

sam: Or was it a part of your attire, everyday?

Meera: But maybe I liek to customize it

sam: :)

yea....

Meera: It is a part of my attire everyday

sam: :) With times, and fashion

Meera: taken off wen I go home to rest

sam: Overcoat happens to get more

Meera: yes, with times and fashion

sam: happening

:)

Meera: but keep some basic things in the overcoat unchanged

the amount it conceals

and the amount of you it reveals

:)

sam: :)

Are you saying that I am not revealing enough?

Meera: yes Ma'am

either as you say, my eyes are not wide enough

sam: :D

Meera: beingused to seeing you without the overcoat

and suddenly with one

I cant seem to figure you out

in that whole chunk of cloth

;)

sam: you know, you may have seen it on your own,

Meera: you practically get lost in it

:D

sam: From your experiences. Sometimes, what you wera can scare other ppl

Meera: of course!

completely

sam: So much so, that you may be ostracised from the society

Meera: very much!

sam: so, to fit in, you need to be like others

Keep a pace with how they are

:)

May be, in the end, my fight said, its best to waer this one

and so, picked it up and have been wearing it since

Meera: yep madame, thats so how you should live, but still ..... you need not necessarily need to be jus like them

you jus need to have a slimy robe that looks like what they are wearing

and sometimes they see a flash of all the colors inside

and wonder .. hmm this gal dresses up pretty well you know

;)

sam: :)

Thank you

I ll keep that in mind

May be in sometime

I ll find the right fit

Meera: I'm happy we had this talk and glad we're still the same

sam: I am still fighting the extreme polls

:)

We are

Arent we

Meera: though we're neighbors differently now

sam: :)

Meera: :P

sam: :D

Meera: you'll have to fight it for sometime, then, I'm sure you'lll know thats an art

and maybe would look at it in your own creative way

would give more dimension

sam: :)

Yea, much more comfortable surely

Meera: :)

See you tomorrow Sam .. and once again, love to be your friend

and always wish I see your colors bright shining on you

:D

sam: :)

I am saving this chat

:)

Meera: heheh

sam: me leaving as well

:)

bbye

Meera: oh please do! I love to be remembered as well

sam: Totally love you Meera

Meera: ;)
Love you too Saaaaaaaaaam :D

Love is ...

... when you wake up thinking of no one else but, that person!

where do you draw a line?

when there are very many differences

where do you say

enough with dignified dignity?

where do you draw the line

to save your dignity?

And I am surprised by the way things work out here. Each one likes to be a part of a herd. The herd likes to believe that all are different and unique. All are talented and better than the rest.

Good, all this is good, for them and their egos (to some extent). But what about isolating one to just be in the good books of others? just blindly following what is being told, what is expected to be in good books of others. Sounds like adolescent teenager's woe... !

Too bad there is only so much you can do with some people, if only they went a step down and looked around. Everything would be different.

Blasphemy!

Apologising does not mean you are wrong and others are right. It means you respect your relationship more than your ego.

Remember Sam.

♫ False impressions, and false images ... who Am I kidding here?
No one cares, no one dares... Its all a part of this world.


Just do your bit and move on.



Thats It.

i and I

So i and I write this post, celebrating us.

I: leave it ra its not going to make a difference
i : That does not mean you don't say it.
(Fighting over who is 'i' and who is 'I')

I dont think any of this would make sense to someone who is reading. It shouldn't also.

I: what happened?.. are you missing your better half
i: NO, i am not missing my partner :P
I: its OK, its natural to miss your partner
i: (Whatever expression on face )

p.s No clarity is expected out of this post for anyone expect i and I.

YES you can go and come back whenever...

but i am a dynamic being changing every

moment

becoming someone else, something else

embracing change

i am not my yesterdays self

for yesterdays lessons have changed me

If you have gone too far off in your wanderings

and it takes a while t0 return

be aware....i may have changed so you may not feel

me the way you knew me to be

these are the days of spiritual

exploration

times when realisations are sudden and

profound

times when one truely moves towards the

ONE

overcoming all duality

my love for you is in the process of becoming

my love for all

this does not mean there wont be enough for us

it would be enough and more

just come soon enough to not be taken aback by the inclusion

(this post has no date...it has been writen but its time has not come yet...its like a post dated cheque)

♫ False impressions, and false Images ... who am I kidding here?
The fact is no one cares, rarely dares...
Its all a part of this world.
Do your bit and move on..

Thats It!