where do you draw a line?

when there are very many differences

where do you say

enough with dignified dignity?

where do you draw the line

to save your dignity?

And I am surprised by the way things work out here. Each one likes to be a part of a herd. The herd likes to believe that all are different and unique. All are talented and better than the rest.

Good, all this is good, for them and their egos (to some extent). But what about isolating one to just be in the good books of others? just blindly following what is being told, what is expected to be in good books of others. Sounds like adolescent teenager's woe... !

Too bad there is only so much you can do with some people, if only they went a step down and looked around. Everything would be different.

Blasphemy!

Apologising does not mean you are wrong and others are right. It means you respect your relationship more than your ego.

Remember Sam.

♫ False impressions, and false images ... who Am I kidding here?
No one cares, no one dares... Its all a part of this world.


Just do your bit and move on.



Thats It.

i and I

So i and I write this post, celebrating us.

I: leave it ra its not going to make a difference
i : That does not mean you don't say it.
(Fighting over who is 'i' and who is 'I')

I dont think any of this would make sense to someone who is reading. It shouldn't also.

I: what happened?.. are you missing your better half
i: NO, i am not missing my partner :P
I: its OK, its natural to miss your partner
i: (Whatever expression on face )

p.s No clarity is expected out of this post for anyone expect i and I.

YES you can go and come back whenever...

but i am a dynamic being changing every

moment

becoming someone else, something else

embracing change

i am not my yesterdays self

for yesterdays lessons have changed me

If you have gone too far off in your wanderings

and it takes a while t0 return

be aware....i may have changed so you may not feel

me the way you knew me to be

these are the days of spiritual

exploration

times when realisations are sudden and

profound

times when one truely moves towards the

ONE

overcoming all duality

my love for you is in the process of becoming

my love for all

this does not mean there wont be enough for us

it would be enough and more

just come soon enough to not be taken aback by the inclusion

(this post has no date...it has been writen but its time has not come yet...its like a post dated cheque)

♫ False impressions, and false Images ... who am I kidding here?
The fact is no one cares, rarely dares...
Its all a part of this world.
Do your bit and move on..

Thats It!

My Stoney Self

So, this is what I had to become to get adjusted in my small little world of corporate, at Google.

A self which rarely acknowledges the fact that there is more to me than what this world wants to see. Looks like after a long fight, I have slowly succumbed to this world. I am no longer 'I am what I am' I am now, I am what 'this world' wants me to be.

Umm... Too complicated to understand unless you have gone through a transition which you have consciously fought against. Anyways. Feel totally thrashed and worthless after this realization.

The morning news told me that the Sensex crashed today! A BIG dip is what i could gather, the first thing my Grandma asked, what about your job, your company? Everything Good?

Although I replied yes Dadi, all fine. However.. I couldn't help but contemplate. The world is in crisis, which is almost an everyday matter. Todays crisis is tomorrows history. However, while I was outside celebrating the festivities, and we burst crackers. It was compelling to hear none of the celebrations from any other companies in the vicinity.

Not sure what i could call it? A companies effort to celebrate it, and its employees? or just EGO? I have it so I ll show.

something I read

♫ Involvement with people is always a very delicate thing - it requires real maturity to become involved and not get all messed up. - Bernard Cooke





I agree there.

What makes me...

I want to be different.

As I have been, and hopefully continue to be.

Cant let myself start living the life as others, and of others. There is so much to myself that I still must understand. There is much to myself that I still must discover, render and enhance.

To this life I want to devote all my energy. Even if it implies creating many controversies. Leaping faiths and jumping trends. As long as it gives me the satisfaction of doing that one thing differently.
And allows me the sight of a new dawn, a new perspective to everything. I guess all the shades of life can be seen from within a prism too. but what makes it beautiful is the discovery when you are outside with all the distractions and you find the colors in white.

Something like Zen? May be. And then May be not.

What ever it is.. I just know that I want to do things differently!

and planned on teaching us 'how to innovate' ...

Ha ha ha :) Thats soooo FunnY!

The things people do, If i had to take a session on inspiring people I think I would do it differently. I think I would make every one in that room feel empowered by letting them lead. 

:) Innovation is Inspiration and freedom combined. 

And i cant go into one of these classrooms again if i can help it!

Ha!

The Ego - I, Me, Speaks. In a conference room. The fight to let the 'I' in me 'stay alive'~Meetings on~Everybody Speaks~Need to be Aloud, to be heard~Almost छीना-झपटी~Yours or Mine~Ideas and Creativity~Namesake~Comfort~Who,What,Where n How?~Success Ratio~Talking Points~POA~Parameters~The fight to stay on Top~No peace~Eyes~Innovation;Within walls~Control Group~emerging Patterns~Hanging by the nook~Blood may be Bloody~Money?!~Update~Excel Sheets~Tissue Papers~Ha ha ha~Calender~Kinley Bottle~Watch~Blah Blah Blah~The End.

toook. toook. toook. toook.

Booorrreeed.

Watched August rush, and If only.



ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Another day added to the otherwise droning melody that I call life.
We are all looking forward to the reorg and I am excited about. Nothing on the GRE and TOEFL front. Have just been whiling away, a day, a week, a moth... a year. One after the another. Talk about living joblessness!

I Fried Poories today, before I came to work. There is nothing like the morning wind. Its really cold here. Here in Nowhere. The bombs blasted in another part of the world. Life came to a standstill for a few. For others like the Delhi metro, it kept on its tracks... going on. May be something else would stop it. Until then...

I am not scared, but for a moment, I was almost lifeless. To wake up and find only destruction even before you place your foot down. I could hear them crying, the commotion. The lifelessness. The noise. Scared. Shocked. Pain. Pain.Listlessness. unconscious. dead. Stop. blur. Shock. silence. loosing control. drowning. silence.

I am not sure what it is, but earlier, I wasnt scared. Oblivious to all the mad frenzy of the world, I lived in my own lil one. Somewhere in nowhere. No, I cant ignore. looks like even nowhere cant be hidden too long.
So far so good. I just hope and pray that somewhere someone would remember that destruction - only brings more destruction with it.

Vadas Again. Talk about resistance and I will tell you that I have no restraints upon myself. Vadas they made again! I had 4!! :(

When will Samie learn?

Resisting the Temptation.

The Question was 'can I resist?' Resist doing that one thing that I am itching to do?
Its a tough task to be able to resist something when your mind, and your heart wants to really wants to do it. Also, when the resources required are easily available around you.

:) The answer is - distraction, will power and a Simple No, again and again.

No No No.

I did it. Did not call him in the night, wont in the afty or the next morning. I hope I stay calm over the weekend.

Back from Bangalore. August as a month was one of the most ideal one of my life. Traveling all the way from the day one. Maharashtra, Kerala, Bangalore, and Hyderabad.

River rafting, Trekking, photography, soul searching, bird watching, and Living.
On the road, on the go. In train from sleeper to first. Come to think of it this has been one of the most eventful months of my life in a long time.

:)Happy Me.

Life - Chapter 1

The dictionary defines the word emulsion as ' A suspension of small globules of one liquid in a second liquid with which the first will not mix: an emulsion of oil in vinegar'.

Illusion on the other hand is defined as 'An erroneous perception of reality, concept, or belief'. In short the condition of being deceived by a false perception or belief of something, or someone. Something, such as a fantastic plan or desire, that causes an erroneous belief or perception.

Thats the phase I see myself living in, as each day passes. This blog is a tribute to my evolved state. Between living a life minus dreams. Waiting to pave my way for that dream to take over someday. Juggling between love, and my job. Distances between my mind and my heart.

Where does 'I' lie?

Beyond the greener pastures, the sunshine and the color red?
Or the streets of that slum, survival of the fittest and thoroughbreds?

Here is to life, and that song
To all the colors, evolution
and what went wrong.

Illusioned + Disillusioned
Distict + Chaos
Clarity + Lost

= Eimulsioned.