And I am surprised by the way things work out here. Each one likes to be a part of a herd. The herd likes to believe that all are different and unique. All are talented and better than the rest.

Good, all this is good, for them and their egos (to some extent). But what about isolating one to just be in the good books of others? just blindly following what is being told, what is expected to be in good books of others. Sounds like adolescent teenager's woe... !

Too bad there is only so much you can do with some people, if only they went a step down and looked around. Everything would be different.

Blasphemy!

Apologising does not mean you are wrong and others are right. It means you respect your relationship more than your ego.

Remember Sam.

♫ False impressions, and false images ... who Am I kidding here?
No one cares, no one dares... Its all a part of this world.


Just do your bit and move on.



Thats It.

i and I

So i and I write this post, celebrating us.

I: leave it ra its not going to make a difference
i : That does not mean you don't say it.
(Fighting over who is 'i' and who is 'I')

I dont think any of this would make sense to someone who is reading. It shouldn't also.

I: what happened?.. are you missing your better half
i: NO, i am not missing my partner :P
I: its OK, its natural to miss your partner
i: (Whatever expression on face )

p.s No clarity is expected out of this post for anyone expect i and I.

YES you can go and come back whenever...

but i am a dynamic being changing every

moment

becoming someone else, something else

embracing change

i am not my yesterdays self

for yesterdays lessons have changed me

If you have gone too far off in your wanderings

and it takes a while t0 return

be aware....i may have changed so you may not feel

me the way you knew me to be

these are the days of spiritual

exploration

times when realisations are sudden and

profound

times when one truely moves towards the

ONE

overcoming all duality

my love for you is in the process of becoming

my love for all

this does not mean there wont be enough for us

it would be enough and more

just come soon enough to not be taken aback by the inclusion

(this post has no date...it has been writen but its time has not come yet...its like a post dated cheque)

♫ False impressions, and false Images ... who am I kidding here?
The fact is no one cares, rarely dares...
Its all a part of this world.
Do your bit and move on..

Thats It!

My Stoney Self

So, this is what I had to become to get adjusted in my small little world of corporate, at Google.

A self which rarely acknowledges the fact that there is more to me than what this world wants to see. Looks like after a long fight, I have slowly succumbed to this world. I am no longer 'I am what I am' I am now, I am what 'this world' wants me to be.

Umm... Too complicated to understand unless you have gone through a transition which you have consciously fought against. Anyways. Feel totally thrashed and worthless after this realization.

The morning news told me that the Sensex crashed today! A BIG dip is what i could gather, the first thing my Grandma asked, what about your job, your company? Everything Good?

Although I replied yes Dadi, all fine. However.. I couldn't help but contemplate. The world is in crisis, which is almost an everyday matter. Todays crisis is tomorrows history. However, while I was outside celebrating the festivities, and we burst crackers. It was compelling to hear none of the celebrations from any other companies in the vicinity.

Not sure what i could call it? A companies effort to celebrate it, and its employees? or just EGO? I have it so I ll show.

something I read

♫ Involvement with people is always a very delicate thing - it requires real maturity to become involved and not get all messed up. - Bernard Cooke





I agree there.

What makes me...

I want to be different.

As I have been, and hopefully continue to be.

Cant let myself start living the life as others, and of others. There is so much to myself that I still must understand. There is much to myself that I still must discover, render and enhance.

To this life I want to devote all my energy. Even if it implies creating many controversies. Leaping faiths and jumping trends. As long as it gives me the satisfaction of doing that one thing differently.
And allows me the sight of a new dawn, a new perspective to everything. I guess all the shades of life can be seen from within a prism too. but what makes it beautiful is the discovery when you are outside with all the distractions and you find the colors in white.

Something like Zen? May be. And then May be not.

What ever it is.. I just know that I want to do things differently!